Hell no, it hasn’t been easy. I had to beg a lot of people to listen to my music. I had to play shows. I had to play to, like, 12 people. I had to play to an empty venue. Every time somebody told me I couldn’t sing, it made me think about how to get better. Auditioning for a girl-group when I was, like, sixteen… failing. My parents now freaking out when I told them I didn’t
want to go to college. The homies that I’d made music with in, like, closets and bedrooms when I was in the pits of depression, to people that resonated with my sadness. There’s so many pieces of the puzzle that have nothing to do with me. The reactions of other people is what’s helped me get here. Grateful. Grateful. Unworthy, because I know a lot of
other people chase this. Her music, it’s super raw. She can explain emotions you’ve felt before, but have never been able to put words into. The reason there’s so many
sad songs in my catalog and so many angry songs is partly because when I’m happy I like to be in that emotion, and I like, like, to stay there, and I’m OK… My songs are like me not being able to sit with those negative emotions, and having to get them out… Which is a joke, ’cause even after they’re out I’m still sitting in those feelings. But at least I’ve got something
to show for it. “Apple Juice” was me kind of being empathetic with somebody that didn’t know how to love me back. The title of the song came from the first time I ever performed it live and it was, like, the biggest crowd I’d ever done in my whole life. 30,000 people. And then I take a swig of whiskey and I make direct eye-contact with this little kid. All these thoughts went and I was like, “Man, this little ten year old’s
watching me do this.” I’m like thinking about my niece and stuff. I’m like, I don’t want them to think this is… Like, I need this because it helps my nerves, but you don’t need this. So I took a swig, made eye-contact and I was like… It’s my apple juice. You see what I’m saying? This is my apple juice. Wow! That looks so beautiful. It looks like heaven fell. Say “Ya!” Ya! If life is too short and you’re living for right now say “Yup”! Yup! Jessie… she just gets life, you
know what I mean? She kind of rocks like a rapper because she’s so animated, and she knows how to control a crowd. Jessie really, really wants to help people. She wants to have made a change, and left a good impression on the world. Is there anybody going through depression? When you’re stuck in that hole, bro, don’t get stuck there. Learn the lesson. You can do anything you want to in this world. This song is called “Figures”. Can we make it look like the stars fell? Who am I, do you know what I mean? For you guys to even be here and be recording my thoughts is just insane, so I’m grateful. Make it bigger than me. Help other people that have felt stuck. Try to make other people happy. I want to help.